Last Thursday,

A hectic day with 2 projects that got to be handed up on the following day, and Im only half done with one, and the other one not even touched yet.. Then came her messaging me to lend her money to see doctor. This was when I was at the student hangout to do my project.

Got online, and we talked there. Well, I told her I will only be able to leave minimum 7pm to transfer her the money. I got to say its my fault that I did not keep my promise by telling her at 7pm when my group only ended only at 8.30pm.. But, I did say minimum.. not promising anything at all on 7pm! Well, of course we did have some quarrel between that 1 1/2 hour.. Quarrels like her saying that the clinic will close when I finish it, and I replying with Its not like I don't want to finish it.. etc..

After that at 8.30pm, while walking to the mrt asking whether if she still need me to transfer, she replied only if I would take the time to accompany her to see the doctor. Eventually, I said no because I haven finish both of the project.. BUT, I would if I do not have this two project in hand.. And so, we didn't talk till now..

Well, just read some post from her blog post about me not caring about her when she is in need.. and the only thing I can say is.. is that how much our friendship worth - for you to think that Im actually not caring about you..

Firstly, the best I can do for that day is to transfer you the money instead of accompanying you because of the project. And absolutely yes to your blog post, that I will do badly for that 2 module if im not doing this project (the percentage is almost half of the 2 module..)

Secondly, of course I care that you are going to get a gpa of 1. That is why, I told you to work hard because this is only the first semester! You still got 5 semesters to pull it up!

Thirdly, why are you only looking at only this incident to think that I am not sticking with you through thick and thin? I intended to lend you 30bucks even though its not that much. You turn me down, by wanting me to accompany you.. And for don't know how many times Im saying this, If I have the time, I will! Why don't you look at other times when we helped each other.. why are you only judging on one incident..

Fourthly, its not that you are not worth my time.. For don't know how many times Im saying this, but its just that I need my time for that night for my project! I reached home only at 10 and slept in only at 3+am.. I know its not that late for you, but I have been sleeping at this timing for the past few nights to finish rushing all the projects! Furthermore, I have class at 8am that very morning.. If I were to accompany you, I might not even have time to sleep.

Fifthly, I hope that you will be stronger and don't have so much doubts on your other friends who weren't able to lend you money as well.. They might also have some reasons..

Well, we might/might not talk again.. But please be strong and more positive, my friend!